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Why I Quit Music 😱

Why I Quit Music 😱

So I just had another birthday…🎂

Yay! 🎉Every year is a gift! 💝

And I don’t know about you, but I always get a bit introspective around this time - which is partly why you haven’t heard from me on social media in awhile 😉

I like to reflect on the biggest events of my year - see what I learned, how I grew, what’s working for me, what’s not, what I need to change, let go of, make happen, etc…

So thought I’d share some of that with you.

...and it feels kind of scary and vulnerable doing this… but what the heck - we’re friends, right? 😜

Hopefully there will be some take-aways for you as well.

So here we go…

My 3 biggies last year were:

  • BOTH my youngins flew the coop  - one, all the way across the ocean (it’s that “gypsy” blood)

  • I got my first grey hair (finally a wisegal!)

  • I quit music (don’t freak out, keep reading…)

Yep, last year I decided to take a year off from performing live, which was quite a big deal for me mostly because I worked very hard to get to the point where I could make a living from it!

But after doing that full-time for about 2 ½ years following the release of my first album, I was beginning to feel burned out - like I was just spinning my wheels.

It’s not that I didn’t LIKE sharing my music and meeting so many wonderful people every week - that part’s AWESOME - but all of a sudden I realized that I hadn’t CREATED any new music in a long time and that was really bugging me.

Now I know there are artists who only dream of getting that far “making a living through playing music” - but I don’t want to just make a living! I want to make MUSIC - and even fully booked, I was barely covering my bills.

That’s when it dawned on me… 

Shoot! I’m not a musician.

I’m a music ARTIST.

Yes, I have music talent - I sing, play guitar, write songs...but the LAST thing I wanna do after a long days work (in this case: playing music) is bring work home (play more music). Musicians who are REAL musicians - ALL they wanna do is play music! They’ll do it all day long on a train, on a plane, with a goat, on a boat...green eggs and all and in their SLEEP. 

Not me.

For me, there has to be a REASON to pick up my guitar. A REASON to sing a song.

That reason is when I feel a song coming on that I know will add value to my world and perhaps yours if you’re a kindred spirit.

That reason is a well crafted story with lyrics to match the emotion in the melody...then being able to effectively communicate the experience!

But that wasn’t my reality.

Most of the places I was performing at were venues that had other activities at the core: dining, wine tasting, a party... music was definitely PART of the experience, but not the main focus.

As a result, I was feeling overwhelmed and pressured to add songs to my repertoire that, for the most part, I felt absolutely no connection with just because they fit the “ambience” - kinda like successfully making small talk with everyone at a party but never really having a conversation, ya know? It felt very “professional” and “commercial”… and I started to dread it. NO BUENO.

I suddenly realized that I was making a living at the expense of my creativity.

I knew I HAD to make a change or the artist in me would die.

You see, I don’t want to HAVE to create music to live. I want to live to create. - To create from a place of overflow and experience. Because that’s where the best songs come from anyways!

So if you don’t see or hear much of me these days, just know I’m on a mission to create the kind of lifestyle that will support my long-term goals - that OF COURSE also include making more epic, inspiring, uplifting, and empowering music that I can share with YOU.

What are you looking to create in your life? I’d love to hear 🙂

Love ‘N Music,

~ EDEN :)


P.S. Just a quick you a heads up: my >> ONLINE SHOP << is closing until further notice August 1st. So if you’ve been wanting to get a CD from me, this could very well be your last call! Just enter SUMMER10 at checkout and I’ll take 10% off for you 😉 You’re welcome 🙂

"Shallow"

"Shallow"

Tell me something…❤️️

It took me awhile to finally be able to perform this song without getting emotional as the movie “Shallow” made me think what it must’ve been like for my brother and his struggle with depression (that he never talked about)…

God bless Lady Gaga for raising awareness and promoting more conversation regarding mental illness.

Today I dedicate this song to any of you who may be struggling: may you find the courage within you to ignore that insidious inner voice and live courageously ❤

Much love,

Eden :)

"Burning Man"

"Burning Man"

Some days I’m the exception. Most days I’m just like most…🙃

I fricken LOVE this Dierks Bentley song so wanted to share it with you.

Dunno about you, but I can pretty much identify with every single line - except that I haven’t been to Burning Man… YET. Have you?? To go or not to go…🤔

Either way, hope you enjoy my acoustic version of the song!

Lotsa luv! ~ Eden :)

Brazil, Buns 'N Beer (Hello 2019!)

Brazil, Buns 'N Beer (Hello 2019!)

Hard to believe we are already 2 weeks into 2019!!

Having just gotten back from Brazil, I wanna talk a little about that...

So I love the finer things in life, but nothing fascinates me more than experiencing new cultures.

Although I grew up in Brasil, one of the things I never got to do - and one of the things on my bucket list - was to experience NYE on Copacabana. Not at some penthouse club overlooking the beach, but the NYE “do povo” (“of the people”) ON the beach...

❄️ Baby, It's Cold Outside ❄️

❄️ Baby, It's Cold Outside ❄️

Sending warm winter wishes your way…❤️️

...so excited I FINALLY got Mr. A-A-ron to sing!! If you enjoyed, I’m sure he’d love to read your positive comments! 😉(*hint hint*)

Merry Christmas!

~ Eden :)

P.S. Be on the lookout for some news from Brazil soon... it will be my first Christmas in the air! ✈️

P.S.S. If you haven’t yet grabbed your FREE CD (my Christmas gift to you!), you should do that now so that Santa is not delayed! It’s easy cheesy like 1-2-3, just click HERE while you still can!

🍁Fall-ing Into A New Chapter🍁

🍁Fall-ing Into A New Chapter🍁

Wow, I can’t believe it’s already been a month since I announced my “last performance of 2018”!

And I’ve been asked a lot why am I’m “not doing music anymore” - so figured a “note” to clarify was in order!

First of all, I have NOT stopped “doing music”. If anything, much to the contrary. But I can totally understand where a lack of tour dates on my website and posting pictures of my shows could make it appear that way…

So allow me to share a little “behind the scenes”…

☀️Out Of Hibernation!☀️

☀️Out Of Hibernation!☀️

HAPPY EARTH DAY! 🌎

Well it’s spring time around here and for me that means time to come out of hibernation! 

Yep that’s right, I like to hibernate during the cold months around here… but that doesn’t mean I don’t get shit done. Actually MOST of my really hard work is done during that time and then during the spring and summer I get to be on-stage and perform and hang with friends and all that fun stuff that’s coming, WOOHOO! 🙌🙌🙌

So in case you’re wondering like some of you have written in asking “where’ve you BEEN?!?!?”, with many big projects finally out of the way, I’ve decided it’s about time I give you some big news…